Introduction

Now, despite the picture above, I don't want your first impression of me to be a lover and excessive user of depressing quotes, although with my current moodswings, I might as well be. I've tried blogging several times before back when I was 12-15 but I rarely posted and having only one reader (myself) really wasn't much of an encouragement. Instead, it felt like a personal diary. One which was open for anyone and everyone to read, yet no one did. But there was always this year that my parents would somehow stumble upon it. In the end, my blog posts pretty much read like an event schedule with short explanations here and there. It isn't to say this time, 2 years later, it will be any different. For all I know, it could end up the same way. But I've decided to give it another shot.

First, I'll start with a short introduction. My name's Xin Ni (hence the Xin in Xin: Online). I am a June baby, born in 1998. Having just finished my A Levels a month ago, I am waiting for my results which would come out around..Feb next year? Just in time for CNY! Totally excited...ish. I am rarely on a computer so almost all typing is done on my phone. Needless to say, I cannot live without it. I was born in Malaysia but was then brought back to and raised in Brunei. I grew up an only child, so naturally I keep things to myself and lock myself in my room almost all the time. My parents are workaholics which didn't make it any better while growing up. (I say growing up as if I'm 30) And so like most kids with busy parents, I grew up under the watchful eye of a maid.

Side entry: I've been volunteering for the Special Olympics Bocce Competition for 4 days now and today we got to witness the prize giving ceremony for single and team matches. Escorting the players, and seeing the overjoyed looks on their faces, brings such an unimaginable joy. I cannot even begin to describe nor explain the overwhelming feeling of euphoria when the players receive their medals and smile so brightly for everyone to see that they succeeded despite being labelled special. Before we officiated the games, we had a briefing and were given the chance to try out Bocce for ourselves. It is NOT easy. Not at all. But they are good. And most of them were really friendly. There were times when I felt sad when one team was losing. But everyone was a winner. And in their hearts I hope they know they did their very best.

Continuing on...as a child I had a pretty good standard of English, better than most kids my age I might say. That led to my wanting to be a writer/journalist at a young age. But as I aged 😌 my level of English depleted. So that totally dampened my ambitions of becoming a writer. Throughout my 17 years of living, I've had numerous ambitions and surprisingly, none of them were the usual doctor lawyer teacher combo. It was ever changing, but one stuck through the years. Acting. I have to be super honest here and say I absolutely have no talent in acting. My friends can tell when I'm lying so imagine how bad it is haha. But I still dream of someday pursuing a career or side career in acting. Oh the childhood fantasy haha. "I wish I can co-star Zac Efron ❤❤❤"

I used to be an avid reader. I would rarely leave the house without a book in my hand. But lately, I've become lazy. The pile of unfinished and unread books is getting taller by the day but I still go out and buy more books anyway. On Wattpad, thanks to the fear of data consumption, my library has maintained the way it is. About 15 books all read up to some point of the story. I am ashamed 😞

Okay, I don't really know what else to put in here that wouldn't be TOO personal. I guess I'll end my introduction here and I hope you (the reader, myself included) will be back for more posts in the future.